~`*[tHE fAllEN AUtUMN]*`~

the invisible rainbow

i was driving home after work a couple of days ago and it was raining cats and dogs.

and i happpened to see a dull rainbow up on the sky.quite a nice view from the car as the rainbow was piercing through the clouds.hehex!`

so fast the time flies and now i am in year 2010!`

and i have lived for almost two decades on earth - in less than six months away i'll be turning twenty..

plus, i'm furthering my studies to one of the local Us this year.still not sure course to take yet..hmm.

life is surely getting tougher for me and those people around me as we are growing older and older each day.

technically, today i thought writing my new year resolutions.

1. to score well in my STPM so that i'll be able to get a good course in the uni

2. to get off the hook from those rumuors as usual

3. to have a good health (including losing weight and having a nicer skin tone)

4. to learn up at least one new sports and my guitar..

5. to find someone understands me (and i hope he's not from my hometown!lolx!`)

and etc.. - kind of havent set my resolutions yet.

suddenly want to experience the feeling of being blind - inability to see, deaf - inability to hear and dumb - inability to speak..

WHY?

well,while working yesterday..

a malay guy came to me "asking" for paper and pen..

din know he was dumb/deaf until my big boss' wife told me..

so i quickly passed him a piece of paper and a pen..

he wrote the things he wanted to buy and i helped him to translate to my boss..

moments later he walked out of the shop to "talk" to his friend who was waiting outside..

they were communicating with each other using sign language..

it suddenly occured to me to have a deep thinking of what will happen to me if i was in their position..

i should learn sign language one day..

why is it so hard for them to stop match making me?! i really cant stand it any longer!`

no matter how much i say NO and that i am not interested in him yet they will find ways to make us together..

i know that he's a good guy but we dont seem to have the chemistry together..

plus, i rarely talk to him and i never talk to him since our last duty together..

when i say it's enough then IT IS ENOUGH!`

dont make me go and find a guy to act as my boyfriend.

hello voxers!`

it's been along time since i last update my vox. my laptop left my side due to several reasons.

anyway, i hope it's not too late to wish everyone MERRY CHRISTMAS!

and i also want to wish everyone HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010  in advance!~

damn! this guy is so irritating..

not sure what i should name him as but i once talked about him before in my previous post [ you can find in this post's link ]..

he is starting to get on my nerves lately - ever since i joined plurk and added him ad friend..

my oncoming story if more to the plurk thingy..so if you readers have a plurk account or plurked before then you'll understand..

plurk has this karma thing which will only increase if we :-

*plurk often

*get responses from our friends about our plurk

*add/invite friends

*getting fans

because of this i only evryday - 3 times a day or maybe more/less

and that irritating guy will sometimes check out his plurk and will respond to my plurk if he understands some of my plurk..

today, he complained to my friend that he evrytime visit plurk will has notifications of 200 responses and most of them are from my plurk updates..my friend just listen to him but make no comment out of it as she knew how plurk works..

besides this plurking stuff, he kept addressing my last name whenever i see.i dont like people calling my last name cuz my family memberd can call me by my last name..

he is so 100% irritating..now i understand how my friend whom he had a crush on felt..

bro didn't manage to take away my laptop to the place he is currently staying.guess he was really busy.

oh well, one week more to my first paper which is biology paper 2 - consisting of 4 structured questions and 3 essays.. yikes!~

for the pass few days, i have been trying hard to focus on my studies especially CHEMISTRY which i am weak in..but the study mood was not there!~argh!` the definitions and the formulas just couldn't get into my head.looks like i am gonna say bye bye to chemistry..拜拜！~ lolz!`

anyway, i manage to control my addiction towards the internet.i am onlining once a day.

and later today, i am going to catch a movie with my friends.. 2012! can't wait.

i wont be able to online for a month or so due to my major exam that is just round the corner..

and also my bro will be bringing my laptop to penang for service..

hopefully one month will quickly fly through..

and hopefully i can focus on my studies and score a good result..

i was brought back to the past tonight.

i was brought back to the time when i had my first boyfriend [ not sure if i should consider him as my first love ].

how it all started:

just knew him,R for a couple of days before we got into a relationship.

he made the first move to woo me by asking me out and saying those sweet words.he asked me to be his girlfriend and i agreed as i too had some feelings for him but i was not sure it's love.besides, he didnt give me much time to think as he wanted to know it straight away..

he even asked me to prove it that i love him.and he gave me three choices : kiss, hug or both. i chose the hug but he wanted a kiss..but i was not ready for a kiss as i barely knew him so i kept saying i wanted to go back.he wont let me go until he got what he want! i eventually gave in - i guess that i was too young to understand the pros and cons that time.he tried to do the french kiss but my lips were sealed tight.\~ there goes my first kiss..haihz~*/

after i got back home, i realised my mistake as i was scared to be involved in a relationship.so the next day, i consulted my guy friend,K who is also R's schoolmate and also my close friend,A.K told me that R was a playboy and all his negative characters and at the same time K and A gave me some advice.after listening to them, i decided to call it quit although it's just a one day relationship.i broke off with him through the internet as i dont to meet him face to face.

next day at school, A interviewed me about how i got involved.so i told her everything.and withing a couple of weeks/months, my other friends found out about it.and one of my friends told me that this R was once in a 3 months relationship with my another friend before he got involved with me.

then, one night in the hawker centre..while i was on my way to order fried koay teow,i suddenly bumped into him.he was so shocked to see me that he turned away from me and stood still while i was imagining he does not exist..

one year later [ 2006 ], i bumped back into him again during a function.he was with his mum.and we sat on the same table.i was even dumbfounded when i found out that his brother is actually my brother's friend! as i knew his parents.

so many coincidences.haihz!but i have got over him.

and tonight, i met his brother and father in a coffee stall.this was the first time i saw his brother..his brother is way better then him but we cannot juge a book by it's cover,right?

hmm..anyway, let bygones be bygones.hopefully i will find a better guy - someone who loves me for what i am and respects me.

have you ever logged on to a virtual tarot reading website especially peteranswers.com?

well, i would say this was my first time logging on to such a page/website after listening to a friend of mine,D about his experience in school this morning..

D said that whatever you ask on this page, the answer that the system gives will be eventually true/correct..

but we have to ask in a polite manner or the system will not answer our question..

D was saying that his friend was asking questions on the page when he walked in to the room..

his friend then asked if he wanna try it out as it seems to be true..

so D said ok.and the friend eventually typed out "what is the colour of D's t-shirt?" and guess what the system or i would say the so-called PETER answered? .. BLUE - he was really wearing a blue t-shirt..

D's friend tried again with another question this time and it answered correctly..

D still not believing it.so he asked instead regarding on his gf's whereabouts.but the system/peter doesnt want to answer the question he typed..so his friend retyped the question again instead - the result : it gave the actual location!and it really stunted him..

after listening to his story,we planned to try it ourselves when get back home..

i went and checked out the page a couple of hours ago..

typed in "who was my first love?" and it answered "when the time is right you will find out yourself."

still not satisfied i tried the name of my friend's first love and also the current boyfriend..

but it doesnt give the actual answer.a different respond each time i asked..

so i managed to discover the trick behind this webpage thanks to Yahoo!Answers..

so, dont get tricked!hehe!~